Among all my experiences of God's gratious Dealings with me I haue constantly observed this, that he hath never suffered me long to sitt loose from him, but by one affliction or other hath made me look home, and search what was amisse—so vsually thvs it hath been with me that I haue no sooner felt my heart out of order, but I haue expected correction for it, which most commonly hath been vpon my own person, in sicknesse, weaknes, paines, sometimes on my soul, in Doubts and feares of God's displeasure, and my sincerity towards him, sometimes he hath smott a child with sicknes, sometimes chastened by losses in estate,—and these Times (thro: his great mercy) haue been the times of my greatest Getting and Advantage, yea I haue fovnd them the Times when the Lord hath manifested the most Love to me.

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