Though my confidence in God is unshaken, and my peace uninterrupted, yet my heart has been burdened with a load that I cannot easily shake off. No one but he who has experience of it can comprehend the otherwise deep mystery of how the mind, while staid on God and kept in perfect peace, can nevertheless be harassed with cruel temptations, the heart torn and lacerated with sorrow of an indescribable character. Yet so it is with me at present. All this God sees necessary for my good or he would not permit it to come upon me, and I have no doubt that he will bring me through the fire without hurt.

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